I Turn 40 Today

From the moment I turned 39 years old, I found myself mentally preparing for this day. I have been anxious, excited, and most of all, welcoming of its arrival. There were many things I started reflecting upon, like who I’ve been and where I see myself going and whom I see myself growing into. On some levels, I was happy but I knew there were areas that still need work.


As a child, we often dream about where our lives should be certain at appointed ages. I can honestly say I never pictured myself this far in age when I was young. Where I did see myself in the oldest age I could imagine was living in Paris as a famous painter, painting on some bridge in my beret, engrossed in the culture, and carefree.  That was my ongoing dream. I was pretty decent artist so it didn’t seem too unfathomable.

Today, I am a wife (a second time), a mother of two, with a regular job and a side business, and I’ve never been to Paris. I painted my first painting about six weeks ago and realized the love to paint never escaped me. I’m currently looking to invest in paint supplies to begin this new hobby but old love. Instead of Paris, I ended up in the Navy, which changed my future of many of my family members. While I was dreaming, life happened.

It’s true what they say about knowing what you know at different ages of your life. I realized in my twenties, I didn’t know shit, although I thought I knew it all. At that time, it’s really the world as only I know it. I was a hot-headed know-it-all who swore to have been there and done that. In your thirties, you begin to understand what you’ve learned all those year; that you hadn’t lived enough life. You establish direction, sense of self, and choice of character. I calmed down, listened more and talked less. With blinders off, I realized I wasn’t as invincible as I thought.

With this new decade, I have I hopes and new dreams. My mind is more focused. I can see the forest and truly say I’ve seen good bit of these trees. What I foreseeable recognize is life is shifting back to me. I’m a wife and a mother of teens who will soon leave the nest, affording my husband and I more “we” time and myself more “me” time. Almost twenty years have been focused on caring for others. I see focus, growth, wisdom, freedom, and family expansion..hopefully toward the latter part of the decade of course. I don’t feel old, tired, or heading toward a hill.

So, I will not lie about my age because 40 is a great age to be. I will be open to and accept all that embodies 40. This is a great time and a look forward to the next stage of me. With God and my family, I believe all will be alright.


We Can All Help to End Hunger

While scanning the pages of the December issue of Glamour digital magazine, I came across a FEED ad featuring John Legend and Chrissy Teigen. The ad stated their bags, bracelets, and scarfs will provide 1,120 meals and micronutrient servings to the hungry. Considering how much of an advocate I am for feeding the homeless, it’s no wonder this ad caught my attention. I’m the person who usually flip past the advertising with not much of a glance.

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After doing a bit of research, I found their products to be stylish, affordable, and most of all, a great way to support the hungry. Although I am sharing the holiday ad, feel free to go to their online store to see what’s new. I’m sure you won’t be disappointed. www.feedprojects.com

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If you find something you like, let me know. I’d love to hear about it.

Beyond The Surface

I have this unique gift in seeing the gift in the beyond the surface. Tamar receives a lot of slack for her personality, as do I. My spirit tends to gravitate to more complex personalities, because I am too. Usually, there is some hurtful story that grew into a strong ending. On the surface, its really ugly, but dig a little and you find something immeasurably beautiful.

Road Trip!!

You cannot take everyone (or everything) where God is taking you. When it comes to fulfilling a purpose there are some critical, non-negotiable weight restrictions for this trip advisory. No heavy burdens. No overstuffed egos. No dangerous personalities. Check ‘em curbside. Repack, remove, and remember that there is only room for destiny on-board.

Should children witness childbirth?

Good question. Here’s your answer.

Due to a power outage, only one paramedic responded to the call. The house was very dark so the paramedic asked Kathleen, a 3-yr old girl to hold a flashlight high over her mommy so he could see while he helped deliver the baby.

Very diligently, Kathleen did as she was asked. Heidi pushed And pushed and after a little while, Connor was born. The paramedic lifted him by his little feet and spanked him on his bottom. Connor began to cry.

The paramedic then thanked Kathleen for her help and asked the wide-eyed 3-year old what she thought about what she had just witnessed. Kathleen quickly responded, ‘He shouldn’t have crawled in there in the first place…..smack his ass again!’